its been such a long time since i've been blogging agn..
well..
many things happen around me lately,
which theres no way i can tell them all..
tonight is just another night where no replies from u,no,nothing.
i know i'm supposed to be getting used to this.
but then,getting used to it doesnt mean that i've got over it
one month,exactly,that you've been ignoring me or somehow,like u don't wanna talk to me anymore..we've talked,but not the same way as before..have u got tired of me?i asked u whats happening.and u said i wouldnt understand..hell yeah!! how am i supposed to understand when u dint even want to tell me a single thing??there's this one thing that i dont understand..why couldnt u open up to me??cant u just like tell me..where ur going?wad ur doing?just to stop me from questioning u the same thing everytime bout ur daily stuff?can't u just tell me any interesting stuff dat happen to u in school??well..i think u hate ur school,u hate ur classmates,u hate ur life right?
jeez
i really so hate myself when i cant stop thinking of u..
how embarassed i was..to cry in redbox where my friends are with me..
they were like :"OMFG WHY ARE U CRYING???"
tears just kept pouring down uncontrollably
and i couldnt stop it
my eyes were swollen when i walk to the toilet and look myself into the mirror..
everyone look at me like:"wth was with this woman??"
i kept avoiding eye contacts with various ppl
and that really suck to the core.
and i admitted..although i dont want to
i miss you.
i really really do.
i know for the past few ones,
i've managed to let go
this time,
lets see how long i need.
anyways,
they say..time heals all wounds right?
i've stop reading back our messages every night.
i've stop looking at your pictures every now and then.
and now,
it's time for me to stop thinking you're the only one.
